Posts Tagged ‘grief’

The Ways My Heart is Broken

My heart broke the moment I knew there was no more hope for Hugo. He had fought so hard for 35 days, had defied so many odds, won so many hearts. Hugo had been born early, far too early, and his lungs were not yet fully developed. There was nothing more that could be done, except show […] Read more…

HELLP syndrome: an acute condition with enduring impact

In mid-February 2014, I went to my routine 24 week community midwife appointment. I expected to out for about an hour, and carry on about the business of being pregnant. Little did I know, I wouldn’t return home for six weeks, and that appointment would change my life forever.  The midwife did the usual tests: my blood pressure is usually […] Read more…

Hugo’s Story

Hugo Christopher Dylan Parker was born at 11.19am on Thursday February 20, at St George’s Hospital, south London. He weighed just 420 grams. Hugo showed us that size isn’t necessarily equal to fighting spirit, or determination to live. I loved him from the moment I saw the line appear on the pregnancy test. Martin and I had been […] Read more…

One More Cuddle

  One More Cuddle I felt you, my darling boy Kicking and punching in my tummy I felt you, my precious boy Your skin against my skin I felt you, my precious boy I want to savour this moment forever Your fingers gently tracing my breast You woogle as I sing Hearing your lips gently […] Read more…

One Week

One Week A week ago I awoke a mummy, your mummy Full of hope, joy and anticipation I dashed to the unit to see your face, To sing to you, to read to you, to soothe you The doctors said your brave fight was over There was nothing more they could do My heart broke […] Read more…

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