Posts Tagged ‘babyloss’

Karma and Luck

Karma is something I used to believe in. “What goes around, comes around,” right? Karma is supposed to mean that bad things happen to people because they have done bad things. Getting their just desserts, if you like. This concept is something I have struggled with since Hugo was born, and even more since he […] Read more…

Everyone Should Know About Pre-Eclampsia and HELLP Syndrome

Pre-eclampsia and HELLP syndrome are life-threatening conditions that can happen in pregnancy. Thankfully they are rare, but they can and do kill women and babies. These illnesses nearly killed me, and they took the life of my much-loved baby son. I say this not to scare people, pregnant women especially. Pregnant women have enough to stress about. The […] Read more…

Grief is Everywhere

Grief is everywhere: The cloud of grief veils everything, makes every day things feel like treacle, out of focus, not quite right. Grief is everywhere – symbols of Hugo everywhere – stars of course. A comfort and a curse. In the butterflies, birds and bees. Nothing is what it is anymore, everything has a special […] Read more…

A Celebration of Life

When Hugo died, we were disconsolate, heartbroken. Our son had changed our lives, and shown us what true love is. We knew that at his funeral we wanted to celebrate his life. What Hugo meant to us, what Hugo had taught us. To show off our baby boy like the proud parents we are. While […] Read more…

The Smouldering Ache of Loss

The pain of losing Hugo It is a fire that rages still. For me – Angry. Burning, flames dancing, fed by oxygen – But you cannot see it. You can smell it, though, the acrid waft of smoke. The smouldering wood looks innocuous, But it holds the heat of the raging fire – Reach out to […] Read more…

My Broken-Hearted Family

I found this image on Pinterest a while ago. It made me cry, but I couldn’t take my eyes from it. So much conveyed through such a simple image. A mother and a father having to let go of their precious baby. I don’t know if I agree with the symbolism of the picture – […] Read more…

Writing My Grief

  I started writing about my grief for Hugo about a month after he died. While I have been open about my grief in my posts on this blog, I have held back an awful lot, too. For most of last year, I felt very disconnected from my grief. I felt like I couldn’t indulge […] Read more…

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