Hugo's Legacy

  • Setting Intentions for 2018

    Ah, New Year – that time when we look ahead to the new calendar and wonder what the next 12 months will bring. We make commitments to ourselves in the form of resolutions with the best of intentions – some realistic, some less so. I don’t believe in resolutions, preferring instead to set intentions. What’s […] Read more…

  • Looking Back at 2017: How Was it for Me?

    With just a few days left of 2017 it’s a good time to reflect on the year…how has it gone, and what I have achieved? My word for 2017 was ‘Illuminate’ – I chose it because it is full of life, light, hope. It is also about enlightenment: knowledge, learning, connections, and empowerment. You can […] Read more…

Maternity Experience (#MatExp)

Perinatal Mental Health

  • EMDR Therapy, Survived

    The cupboard door was opened. All of the contents, stuffed in the cupboard haphazardly and the door forced shut, tumbled on top of me. I felt suffocated, paralysed. But I emerged. I survived EMDR therapy. I survived EMDR therapy when at one point I thought it was making my symptoms worse, and that it was […] Read more…

  • What EMDR Therapy Feels Like

    After my serious illness and the death of Hugo I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). PTSD happens as the result of trauma. Part of PTSD means that parts of the brain that deal with threats, memory, and decision-making (as well as the links between them) are damaged, meaning it is difficult to distinguish […] Read more…

Neonatal

  • Two Years of Hugo’s Legacy

    Today marks two years of Hugo’s Legacy. I was reminded of this by a Facebook memory this morning, which prompted me to think about everything that has happened since I hit ‘publish’ on that first post. In April 2014 I was in that stage of raw, visceral early grief. I was confused, angry, frightened. Full […] Read more…

  • Don’t Stop, Continue: Bereaved Parents’ Voices Matter

    Every so often I get a song lyric going round and round in my head, burrowing in my brain. The most recent one is Don’t stop, continue It’s from Give It Away, one of my favourite songs by Red Hot Chili Peppers. Events this week have intensified my passion for making sure the voices of […] Read more…

Fitness

  • Christmas Day ParkRun

    This year’s Christmas demons were banished by running my very first ParkRun! So, what on earth possessed me to get out of my nice warm bed early on Christmas morning? The prospect of being proud of myself, having achieved something…and taking positive action to be in control of my day, my feelings, not feel sorry […] Read more…

  • The Awesomeness Challenge: Smashed!

    My Awesomeness Challenge for Hugo’s third birthday, and to celebrate the third anniversary of me being not dead went ahead as planned on Monday 20 February 2017…and I smashed it! Not only did I smash the fitness challenge itself – check out the video below for highlights of the 12 exercises – but my fundraising […] Read more…

Just For Fun

  • On Learning To Not Be A Book Snob

    I am a book snob. But I am trying to not be. I love books, always have done, since I was a little girl. And I haven’t always been a book snob: growing up, I wasn’t too fussy about what I read. Enid Blyton books were a firm favourite, and I devoured the Famous Five […] Read more…

  • 40 Thoughts for My 40th Year

    Tomorrow is my birthday, and I shall be 39. The last year of my 30s! I know, I can’t believe it either… The thought of being 40 next year is nowhere near as scary as when I was 29, and looking ahead to my 30s. Age doesn’t really matter that much, and the events of the […] Read more…