I’ve been upping the ante with the workouts by going to more of the freestyle sessions the gym offers to really challenge myself. The freestyle sessions involve HIITs, circuits, and strength work so combined with the PT sessions I have been doing more than I ever could have imagined – and loving it!
While the weight on the scales isn’t shifting which feels a bit frustrating, I am noticing big changes in my body shape. I am losing inches – I’ll find out just how many when I get measured again during next week’s PT class. Whatever the result, I know I am really proud of my progress, which is the main thing.
The workouts have given me a welcome surprise in changing how I deal with stress. For example, last Tuesday morning I headed to the gym before 7am to try and get rid of some nervous energy and anxiety before my first EMDR session. Arriving at the EMDR session I still felt incredibly anxious, but the workout gave me a positive focus and distraction, rather than getting myself in to even more of a state that morning.
I also distracted myself by getting my nails done – another bit of self-care, as well as a tactic to ensure I wasn’t left alone with my thoughts for too long.
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Speaking of therapy…
My first session with my EMDR therapist was last week – I was incredibly nervous and anxious because while getting the therapy (at last!) is great news, the thought of having to revisit the trauma was scary.
Thankfully, the first session was about collecting history and other general bits of information, and we will work up to the EMDR proper over the next couple of sessions. I feel a bit safer with that approach, even though I’ve been warned by my therapist the sessions may well wipe me out emotionally. That’s to be expected I suppose, but a stepped approach feels more manageable.
Turning Passion Into Pounds
On Friday evening I headed down to London to attend the Turning Passion Into Pounds event at the British Library. Co-chaired by my brilliant, dear friend Vicki from Honest Mum I knew the event was bound to be full of energy and great ideas but I was bowled over by how abundant they energy and ideas were!
As the title of the event suggests, it was about turning your dreams into reality by making your passion your living. The panel featured a range of other inspiring women, each of whom have set up their own businesses based on their interests and passions – and their needs. Each member of the panel told their story, and how their careers have evolved usually from the heady heights of successful corporate positions to running their own businesses on their own terms.
The story that most touched me was Simone Dyer’s. You can read more about her background in her bio – but in a nutshell after her daughter was sadly stillborn, Simone left a glittering entertainment career to help other women achieve personal growth. We shared a hug and a promise to get in touch – helping other people through life after a big life event is a passion of mine and something I would like to focus on in the future.
After the panel discussion and the Q&A, there was an exchange amongst the audience with attendees describing what they need to make their passion a reality, and what they can give in return. The willingness of everyone to share ideas and knowledge really felt magic.
The event gave me the opportunity to catch-up all too briefly with Vicki and with Natalie, with whom I am going to be collaborating to help turn each others’ passions into pounds – watch this space!
Turning Passion Into Pounds is due to embark on a nationwide tour – if you have an ambition you would like to get off the ground I can highly recommend the event, so keep an eye out for further details.
Meeting my nephew
Today was a big day: I met my three month old nephew, Noah, for the very first time. It was the first time I had felt able to meet him.
He’s a gorgeous boy, and seemed to enjoy cuddles with his auntie just as much as I did. When he got a bit grumpy I took him to see Hugo’s star wind chimes that make a gentle tinkling sound. They soothed him – it is a beautiful connection between cousins.
I feel rather bereft now – Noah’s visit reinforced just how much my arms need a baby in them, and just how much love I have to give to a little one. But small steps, and today marked significant progress for me.