So, here we are – week two of therapy already!
Last week, I was given two homework tasks – how have I done?
Homework Task 1: Get Up at 7.30am most mornings
I have started setting my alarm for this time. While I haven’t yet got up at this hour, waking up at this time and checking my social media etc is progress – previously I’d wake up at least an hour later, and found the waking up really difficult.
This week I shall be working on actually getting up at that time!
Homework Task 2: Go Swimming
I have discovered the changing rooms at my local pool are undergoing a refurbishment – considering my issue with going swimming related to the changing room this wasn’t a good start!
However, I have a free day pass for a local gym with a pool so I am making plans to go and remind myself just how much like swimming lengths.
What am I doing this week?
Yesterday’s session was about coping strategies.
- Reminding myself that anger does not necessarily equal aggression – and expressing anger is not the end of the world.
- Reminding myself that ignoring feelings does not make them go away. The tool where you try not to think of a white bear is useful – I was trying to visualise a brick wall, but the blinking thing was climbing up and peering over it. So it is with my intrusive thoughts, and traumatic memories.
- Meditating, mindfulness, and finding my internal ‘happy place’ to retreat to when intrusive thoughts and/or traumatic memories are bothering me, or anger and anxiety is threatening to get the better of me.
I felt a little faint after yesterday’s session: the effect, I guess, of facing up to things rather than my usual routine of blissful avoidance.
It’s all little steps, and positive progress.