Supernova

At first –

You were a twinkle in my and your daddy’s eyes.

When we saw the two blue lines –

You were a joy we loved and treasured from the very beginning.

When you were in my belly –

You would kick me as I sang Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star

Then you were born –

You were to us as the sun is to Earth, a star brightening up our lives.

During your life –

You were like a supernova, radiating as much energy as any star – or other living being – could hope to emit in a lifetime.

But, like a supernova that brilliant energy is too brief, far too brief. It explodes, and it disappears from the galaxy. Physically, at least.

When you had to go –

It was like being sucked in to a black hole. All joy, pleasure, hope extinguished. No hope of escape.

It was like being sucked into a wormhole. Transported to a parallel universe. A universe where everything was inside out, back to front. All wrong.

But you are not completely like a supernova, Hugo. ‘Simple physics’ is an oxymoron that can be applied you too. Your energy defies explanation.

Your star shines so brightly, your energy so fierce that while your physical presence is no longer with us your legacy can never die.

You are with us all the time, Hugo. In my heart, in my mind, in my determination to have climbed out of that black hole, and to resist its strong magnetic pull.

You are with us all the time, Hugo. In your legacy, in how people are caring differently for other families like us.

You are with us all the time, Hugo. In the flowers, in the birds, in the bees, in the sunshine.

In the stars I find everywhere.

You are with us all the time, Hugo. But not in my arms, where I want you to be the most.

I love you all the way to the moon (which is made of cheese and you get to in a spaceship) a million times and back. And that’s a lot.

I miss you even more than all the stars in the sky.

 

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mumturnedmom

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  1. Bec Cowley
    July 7, 2015 at 7:05 pm (2 years ago)

    Beautiful words Leigh, Hugo is a shining star, he lives on through you beautiful boy x

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    • Leigh Kendall
      July 8, 2015 at 5:34 pm (2 years ago)

      Thanks so much Bec. Hugo is such a beautiful boy xxx

      Reply
  2. mummyofboygirltwins
    June 15, 2015 at 8:02 pm (2 years ago)

    Beautiful poem. Your words always move me. Sending lots of love and hugs to you, always. Jess xx

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  3. Sara (@mumturnedmom)
    June 15, 2015 at 4:20 pm (2 years ago)

    Oh Leigh, this is truly beautiful. Every line just brims with love. Thank you so much for sharing with #ThePrompt x

    Reply
  4. Casey Bottono
    June 15, 2015 at 8:25 am (2 years ago)

    Oh, Leigh…

    What a beautiful poem. ‘that brilliant energy is too brief, far too brief. It explodes, and it disappears from the galaxy. Physically, at least.’ So often the way…

    Thank you for sharing your wonderful words and your world with us.

    Take care,

    Casey

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    • Leigh Kendall
      June 15, 2015 at 4:31 pm (2 years ago)

      Thank you, Casey. Love to you too xxx

      Reply
  5. mummyshambles
    June 15, 2015 at 6:13 am (2 years ago)

    The love for your baby boy shines through your post with beautiful words, chosen with care and from the heart. Leigh. I choked up reading it. Big hugs. Xx

    Reply
  6. Ali
    June 14, 2015 at 9:16 pm (2 years ago)

    Beautiful Hugo. I love reading your words about him. What a handsome little boy. A shining star. Lots of love, Leigh xx

    Reply

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