“feeling deep pleasure or satisfaction as a result of one’s own achievements, qualities, or possessions or those of someone with whom one is closely associated.”

Well, that’s one of the definitions of ‘proud’. The other relates to having a high opinion of one’s self or vanity, which I’m not too worried about (because I’m not!).

I have mentioned before that I have struggled to describe myself as ‘proud’ of anything I have done since Hugo died. I know I have made achievements to be proud of, but in the context of the death of my beautiful son, using that word just hasn’t felt right.

However, achievements can sometimes be like buses, and several positive things have happened this week (listed in the order they occurred):

Hugo’s Story on the NHS Change Day website: NHS Change Day is a grassroots campaign aimed at empowering staff from all across the NHS to make a positive change. When I was in hospital recovering from HELLP syndrome after Hugo was born, I made an NHS Change Day pledge to raise awareness of the condition I had never heard of that nearly killed me, and made my baby be born far too early. Since Hugo died, I have been working hard through my blog doing just that as part of Hugo’s Legacy. I am sad, but proud, of everything that #HugosLegacy has achieved so far.

Running 5km! I cannot believe I have typed that. A few years ago, back when I was *ahem* two or three stone lighter, I was a regular runner. Running is something I have been trying to get back into, to try and shift some of those pounds. Losing weight – and in general trying to remain physically healthy – is especially important after having pre-eclampsia, because it puts me at a higher risk of cardiovascular disease in later life. My run was done in a time of 31:49 – not bad! I wrote it in my diary, and awarded myself a gold star for my efforts.


Reaching 100,000 hits on my blog I started my blog in April 2013, but about 97,000 or so of the hits have been since April 2014. Stats are not everything, of course, but since the primary purpose of my writing is to raise awareness of issues close to my heart, I was chuffed to have reached this milestone. I am genuinely astonished at the reach of Hugo’s Legacy, and proud that so many people know about my special little boy. Thank you to each and every one of you who has taken the time to read, to comment, or to share.


Becoming a blogger for the Huffington Post I am a regular reader of Huffington Post articles, especially those around premature babies and grief. There are few (that I have read) articles that have talked about baby loss, or anything I have experienced in the past year, so I thought I would get in touch with them. I submitted a draft post and was accepted! I shall be writing about HELLP syndrome, birth trauma, premature babies, baby loss, and living with grief – and here is my first post, published today. It is an exceptional opportunity to further spread the word of Hugo’s Legacy, for which I am very grateful.


I’m not sure whether all these things have given me a ‘feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction’ as per the dictionary definition (yet), but they have helped put a smile on my face, and been a little shaft of light in the darkness. They give me a sense of purpose, and help keep me going.





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31 Comments on Proud

  1. You Baby Me Mummy (@YouBabyMeMummy)
    January 19, 2015 at 6:44 pm (5 years ago)

    WOW! What an incredible week you have had and tremendous achievements. You deserve every one and more. Thanks for linking up to #TheList x

  2. Louisa
    January 19, 2015 at 5:07 pm (5 years ago)

    Well done on your achievements this week. You have so much to be proud of x

  3. leandra bramham (@larabeeuk)
    January 17, 2015 at 9:49 pm (5 years ago)

    Congratulations on everything Leigh! I’m so pleased you have been chosen as a blogger for the Huffington Post, you are a fabulous blogger, I love the way you write. I don’t always comment, not because I don’t want to, but because often I can’t find the right words to do your posts & feelings justice. I’m sure your family, including Hugo are incredibly proud of you too x

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 18, 2015 at 9:16 am (5 years ago)

      Thank you so much for all your kind words and support xxx

  4. Merlinda (@pixiedusk)
    January 17, 2015 at 12:33 pm (5 years ago)

    What good news! I am so proud of you too! Congratulations! #wotw

  5. Kim Carberry
    January 16, 2015 at 8:34 pm (5 years ago)

    You have every reason to be proud!! Congratulations! It sounds like a great week!

  6. mommyslittleprincesses
    January 16, 2015 at 4:32 pm (5 years ago)

    Hon you have every reason to be proud of the things to are accomplishing and how well you are doing! Keep it up xx

  7. thereadingresidence
    January 16, 2015 at 2:12 pm (5 years ago)

    Proud is the right word, Leigh, and whilst I can understand why it may not sit right with you to feel proud of yourself, I feel proud of you anyway, which I hope doesn’t sound patronising. These are all great achievements, you’re doing so well raising awareness with #HugosLegacy. Much love to you xx Thanks for sharing with #WotW

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 17, 2015 at 11:47 am (5 years ago)

      Not patronising at all, Jocelyn, I do appreciate all your support for Hugo’s Legacy. Thank you for your kind comment xxx

  8. Louise
    January 16, 2015 at 10:59 am (5 years ago)

    You should be proud of yourself – you have done so much to raise awareness of HELLP syndrome and give a voice to bereaved parents, well done for all that you have achieved through sharing #hugoslegacy xxx

  9. pottymouthedmummy
    January 16, 2015 at 8:45 am (5 years ago)

    You should feel completely proud lovely. Your blog is wonderful, as is your writing. I am proud of you xx

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 17, 2015 at 11:46 am (5 years ago)

      Thank you for your kind words, Sian xxx

  10. Stephanie (@LifeAt139a)
    January 16, 2015 at 8:40 am (5 years ago)

    Yay! You’re right to be proud, I read the Huff Post story – well done lovely x #wotw

  11. Kiran Chug
    January 15, 2015 at 9:33 pm (5 years ago)

    I’m so proud of you Leigh. As Hannah said, you really are an inspiration, and I don’t know how you do it. SO much love xx

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 17, 2015 at 11:44 am (5 years ago)

      Thanks so much, Kiran xxx

  12. Jenna
    January 15, 2015 at 9:30 pm (5 years ago)

    Such great achievements – you made them happen. Each and every one. Well done, Leigh. xx

  13. Hannah Budding Smiles
    January 15, 2015 at 9:22 pm (5 years ago)

    Amazing! Well done on all of those, you’re an inspiration xxx

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 17, 2015 at 11:43 am (5 years ago)

      Thank you lovely Hannah xxx

  14. babylossmama
    January 15, 2015 at 8:01 pm (5 years ago)

    Congratulations on all of these things! And HuffPost – my, I can’t wait to read your words!

    • Leigh Kendall
      January 17, 2015 at 11:43 am (5 years ago)

      Thanks so much. I’ll be talking about baby loss, in honour of our boys xxx

  15. taragreaves2014
    January 15, 2015 at 7:13 pm (5 years ago)

    You should be proud. Any of those things on their own would be an amazing achievement but you have managed them all during the toughest of times. You rock, Hugo’s mummy 🙂


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