Thankful

It is hard to be thankful when your world has fallen apart

It is hard to be thankful when you have a broken heart.

 

It is hard to get out of bed when you have nothing to be thankful for.

So I think of things to be thankful for:

I am thankful to be here

I am thankful for the 35 precious days with Hugo

I am thankful for our cuddles

I am thankful for the photos and videos I have of Hugo

I am thankful to be mummy to such a special little boy

I am thankful for Hugo’s daddy, who I love very much

I am thankful for my family and friends.

 

There are days when it is difficult to be thankful for these things

So I am thankful for the small things

Sunshine

Flowers

Something brightly coloured and sparkly

A cuddle with Fat Cat

A fuss with a dog

A kind word

A yummy hot chocolate

A glass of good Rioja.

There is always something to be thankful for, however small.

 

But it is hard to be thankful when your world has fallen apart

It is hard to be thankful when you have a broken heart.

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20 Comments on Thankful

  1. You Baby Me Mummy (@YouBabyMeMummy)
    December 10, 2014 at 6:41 pm (7 years ago)

    I honestly don’t know where you find the strength to be thankful and postive. I admire you so much. I am so sorry that this happened to you. Thank you for linking up to #TheList x

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  2. bettyallonby
    December 5, 2014 at 3:44 pm (7 years ago)

    Hi Leigh,

    I’ve really been enjoying joining in with your 31 days of mindfulness hashtag on Instagram, which seems very much in tune with this post.

    The thing is, I have been trying not to post anything to do with Gwenn because I feel as if you’re not going to want to see loads of pictures of babies all the time. But then I think, “Well, Leigh must see a lot of babies as she’s a mummy blogger and an active part of the community” which in turn makes me think, “What a strong, incredible person she is”.

    To have gone through what you have gone through but still be able to “put a brave face on” and find things to be thankful for is amazing. I am guilty of whinging far too much and I shouldn’t. I don’t know if I could be as “thankful” as you if I were in your position. I don’t think I am strong enough.

    xxxx

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    • Leigh Kendall
      December 5, 2014 at 7:04 pm (7 years ago)

      Hi Beth, I’m so pleased you’re joining in with #31daysofmindfulness, and am delighted you’re finding it helpful too.

      It’s so considerate of you to think of not posting photos of Gwenn. You’re so right, I see photos of babies all the time. I’ve nearly perfected the art of seeing without looking, if that makes sense, so I don’t drive myself to despair.

      Thank you for your kind words. If someone had told me a year ago what would happen this year and how I would respond, I would have laughed at them (after recoiling in horror, of course). We never know how strong we can be until we need to be – it’s just a shame it takes such tragedies to discover it.

      Lots of love xxx

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  3. lisaslife1970
    December 3, 2014 at 6:40 pm (7 years ago)

    Keep finding strength in the little things x

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    • Leigh Kendall
      December 4, 2014 at 3:52 pm (7 years ago)

      Thank you, I shall try xxx

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  4. Mummy Tries
    November 29, 2014 at 4:10 pm (7 years ago)

    Once again I’m totally blown away by your ability to find things to be thankful for when you’re going through such heartbreaking grief. Love and hugs to you lady xxx #ThePrompt

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    • Leigh Kendall
      December 1, 2014 at 2:04 pm (7 years ago)

      Thank you. I do think it’s important to find things to be thankful for, however small and however hard it is to do, because otherwise what’s the point? Thanks for commenting xxx

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  5. Morgan Prince
    November 29, 2014 at 9:19 am (7 years ago)

    You’re a very strong woman to be able to find things to be thankful for. Whenever I read a post from you I marvel at your strength and positivity. xx #ThePrompt

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 29, 2014 at 9:21 am (7 years ago)

      Thank you. It’s either that or never emerge from my duvet, but still I am very tempted to do that some days. Thanks for commenting xxx

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  6. Louise
    November 28, 2014 at 10:56 pm (7 years ago)

    Leigh, I so admire your positivity and strength in trying to find the things to be thankful for and succeeding in amongst your grief. I am sure there must be many days when it is incredibly hard to do xx

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 29, 2014 at 9:19 am (7 years ago)

      Oh believe me, Louise, there are days when that is very hard indeed – but it is important to try to do it. Thanks for commenting xxx

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  7. Sara (@mumturnedmom)
    November 28, 2014 at 9:03 pm (7 years ago)

    Sometimes it is so hard to find the positive and it is inspirational to see how you are still able to look for the small things that you can take pleasure from when you need it most x Thank you so much for linking to #ThePrompt x

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 29, 2014 at 9:17 am (7 years ago)

      Thanks Sara. I really do think it is crucial to find the good in everything – it might sound Pollyanna ish, but otherwise, what would be the point of going on? That’s not to say it’s not difficult on many days, of course…thanks for commenting xxx

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  8. sophieblovett
    November 28, 2014 at 11:03 am (7 years ago)

    Ah this is so sad, but so inspiring at the same time. It is so important to be thankful for the small things, especially when times are hard. xx

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 28, 2014 at 3:31 pm (7 years ago)

      It really is important to find things to be thankful for no matter how hard it is, otherwise life would often seem hopeless. Thanks for your comment xxx

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  9. thenthefunbegan
    November 28, 2014 at 9:35 am (7 years ago)

    The fact that you call yourself Positive Leigh speaks volumes about you. Your heart has been broken but you clearly have inner strength. Finding thanks in this new world you’re living in must so hard. Xxx

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 28, 2014 at 3:28 pm (7 years ago)

      I set up my IG account and handle last year – but I guess it does say something about me. The fact I nearly died is never far from my thoughts, and gratitude for not being dead is something I remind myself of. It is really hard to think of things to be thankful for, but important xxx

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  10. SingleMotherAhoy
    November 28, 2014 at 9:03 am (7 years ago)

    It’s hard, but you’re trying. That striving to find something to be thankful for is what will pull you through. Thinking of you xx

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    • Leigh Kendall
      November 28, 2014 at 3:26 pm (7 years ago)

      Thanks Vicky. I honestly think I wouldn’t get out of bed if I didn’t try to think of things to be thankful for, and I am too grateful to be alive for that xxx

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