This week has been a time of transition.

It was the first day of autumn earlier this week. A new season on its way. Time to pack away the summer dresses and get out the cosy jumper dresses, tunics and leggings. As much as I love summer, there is something comforting about those clothes.

It is also a time of transition because Saturday marks six months since Hugo’s death.

We humans like to mark the passage of time. In a funny way, it feels strange marking the six month anniversary because it’s not like anything will change or can change. It’s not like I’ll suddenly be ‘better’ because the calendar says it’s a certain date. I’ve given up hoping I’ll wake up one morning to discover it was all an awful nightmare; I smile more; and there are more good days than bad, so there has been progress.

I also don’t like marking it because it’s another day further away from Hugo, and another day hurtling towards the awful first milestones like the first Christmas, his first birthday, and the first anniversary of his death.

But it is a useful marker to take stock of everything that has happened – and consider what the next six months might bring. I don’t know what will happen next, but I can only hope the next six months can surely not be as bad as the previous six.


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20 Comments on Transition

  1. Sara (@mumturnedmom)
    September 29, 2014 at 1:08 pm (5 years ago)

    As always, a beautiful and considered post x Sending love x

  2. liquoriceuk
    September 27, 2014 at 5:30 pm (5 years ago)

    A very tough milestone for you. Sending you huge hugs x

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 28, 2014 at 11:10 am (5 years ago)

      Thank you, the hugs are really appreciated xxx

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 26, 2014 at 5:38 pm (5 years ago)

      It is, a time for retreat and snuggling. Thank you xxx

  3. thereadingresidence
    September 26, 2014 at 12:43 pm (5 years ago)

    I think using the milestone as a time to reflect back and see that the next 6 months can only be better is very powerful. You’re so very strong and inspirational, and I hope for happy times ahead for you x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 26, 2014 at 5:28 pm (5 years ago)

      It is a good milestone for reflection. Thank you so much as ever xxx

  4. Life at 139a (@LifeAt139a)
    September 26, 2014 at 11:44 am (5 years ago)

    I too hope your next six months “improve” – sending strength and love and will be thinking of you tomorrow x

  5. Jayne@ Sticky Mud and Belly Laughs
    September 26, 2014 at 9:30 am (5 years ago)

    Such a strong lady you are, and a beautifully written piece dedicated to your Angel. May there be Happy times ahead for you. xx

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 26, 2014 at 5:24 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank you, I hope happy times are ahead too xxx

  6. kaowen2013
    September 26, 2014 at 9:29 am (5 years ago)

    Beautiful Leigh, much love to you xxx

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 26, 2014 at 5:23 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank you, sending love back to you too xxx

  7. thepumpingmama
    September 25, 2014 at 10:06 pm (5 years ago)

    I don’t think there’s any way they can be. If there’s any justice in the world then the only way is up. I’m praying that it is.

    I love Autumn too. Snuggly clothes, comfy clothes. Clothes you can hide in.

    Peace, strength and love to you.

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 26, 2014 at 5:22 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank you, me too.

      Oh yes, snuggly comfy clothes – lovely.

      Thank you, lovely lady xxx

  8. Kim Carberry
    September 25, 2014 at 8:20 pm (5 years ago)

    Such a tough time…..You write about it so beautifully!
    Hugs to you x

  9. Mummy Tries
    September 25, 2014 at 6:19 pm (5 years ago)

    You write so beautifully considering what you are going through lovely lady. It’s good to hear that you have more good days than bad now. Here’s hoping there are lots of smiles to look forward to over the next six months xxx

    • Leigh Kendall
      September 25, 2014 at 8:44 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank you, writing is my therapy xxx


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